It's a small small world out there...

Sunday, July 5, 2009

summer

These few weeks have been great... but it's been extremely hard on me both mentally and physically

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

The rules are to write statements about people without mentioning their name.

1. I wonder if I could really hold back what I really wanna say to you anymore
2. I keep lying to you but it's only because you don't believe me on anything I say anyway...
3. You and your group seriously looks like they're running in a circle in life with no end anytime soon
4. The pain you're going through is the same thing I go through everyday.. and i mean EVERY damn day...
5. There are so many times where I really wish you were here just so I can have deep talks with you again
6. Bless my soul and give me the strength to focus and be strong...
7. You weird me out, but I'm interested in you... but for immoral reasons...
8. As long as I don't get fired anytime soon, the rest of the team and I will be toughing out all the bullshit right beside you.
9. Yo, we need to talk more!
10. Not gonna give up on you
11. What did I tell you? I told you he was a douchebag and would use you again... just gotta learn the hard way huh?

Thursday, April 23, 2009

personality test

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

WOW this is pretttty damn good indeed! i can agree with it 100% honestly!

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

April Statements

The rules are to write statements about people without mentioning their name.

*I added one letter for the name of the person that I'm talking about.

L - 1. I love/hate how much it feels like the past now since we talk more.
J - 2. I feel like I keep letting you down, even though i never show it.
A - 3. You're like a mother to me, even though you hate being called old haha. i guess i can call you an older sister like person in my life then.
G - 4. Don't be retarded.
L - 5. We really can't talk like before huh?
A - 6. I REALLY really wish you were in SF.
G - 7. Bless my soul and give me the strength to focus and be strong...
A - 8. It's not in my place to say this but, stop gambling and teach your fuckin daughter some better values please?
A - 9. Money money money money money.. that's all it is with you.
K - 10. In the short period of time I've known you, you affected my life alot lately and I thank you so much.
L - 11. (I had trouble with this one, but it came down to these words.)
Look... I don't hate you... I hate the way you unconsciously treated me, I just want you to truly deeply realize it all... Also, I apologize for the 26th and the 27th.... i really do... but yes.. there's a lot of tension...
T - 12. My bad lol... Um.. Here's a good one for ya, I want one order of your tofu dish lol!

Favorite Quotes I Live By

1. Knowing is better than wondering...

2. Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you KNOW it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.

3. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too. Even when you're in the dark. Even when you're falling...

4. Change... we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming... We either adapt to change or we get left behind... And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But heres the truth: the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Sometimes, change is... everything.

5. Luck is nothing more than probability taken personally...

6. Too often, the thing you want the most is the one thing you can't have... Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be... The people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want...

7. At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need....

What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.... We're all damaged, it seems. Some of us more than others. We carry the damage with us from childhood, then as grown-ups, we give as good as we get. Ultimately, we all do damage. And then, we set about the business of fixing whatever we can...

People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers....

Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. But being hardcore isn’t just about being tough. It’s about acceptance. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You don’t have to be tough every minute of every day. It’s okay to let down your guard. In fact there are moments when it’s the best thing you can possibly do… as long as you choose your moments wisely.

There’s a clarity thing when you cross over the edge. There’s a moment when everything just melts away and you’re fearless....

well...

It goes away. The feeling. That feeling that you have right now... today... that feeling like you can do anything. That clarity... It goes away. And you go right back to being the coward who can’t tell the person you love how you feel...

The truth is painful. Deep down, nobody wants to hear it, especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can't help ourselves. Sometimes, we tell them because we owe them at least that much...

In life, only one thing is certain, apart from death and taxes. No matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intentions, you are going to make mistakes. You’re going to hurt people. You’re going to get hurt. And if you ever want to recover... there’s really only one thing you can say... Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be RIGHT. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget...

Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. The funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need.... At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say. They're what you do. Some things you say because you have no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves....

Sunday, July 5, 2009

summer

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Late May Statements

Thursday, April 23, 2009

personality test

Thursday, April 2, 2009

April Statements

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