It's a small small world out there...: browsing and i got to thinking

Thursday, November 20, 2008

browsing and i got to thinking

mmmmmm hmm...

so i was browsing around people's blogs... well the ones that i have saved on the side at least, and i stumbled upon one from an old friend of mine....

i didnt wanna think of it as me, but it sounded like it was about me, and its that she forgot my birthday... at this point if you're reading this you know im talking about you haha...

and this got me thinking ALOT.... and really, not having the person here in person really really changes things... it either eats away at you slowly and you simply just disappear from each other without any words, and THAT is letting time fuck you over.... or... you actually chose to avoid em completely because of certain personal reasons i guess...

and after reading it over and over, it felt like it definitely was towards me cuz when i thought about it more, she was one person that i thought that wouldve said something and yet... nothing. im not mad about it at all though ok? so dont beat yourself up about it, and its wayyyyy past already. i really dont care haha...

but then i started realizing how much i missed you in my life.... what we had before you left... and hey you gotta do what you gotta do. alot of old memories of you started popping up again, and well... i gotta say i even had a dream about you not so long ago, and with all this said, i know we'll talk again... i got something else to say to ya...

2 comments:

miss theresa :) said...: putting gmail's provided services to good use i'll probably never touch this :P; December 13, 2008 at 12:52 AM
Anonymous said...: I don't know if you get notices when someone leaves a comment for you. But hopefully somebody notifies you.

...I was totally talking about you.

Happy very belated. Give me an IM sometime so I don't feel completely awk. :]; January 29, 2009 at 5:01 PM

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1. Knowing is better than wondering...

2. Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you KNOW it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.

3. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too. Even when you're in the dark. Even when you're falling...

4. Change... we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming... We either adapt to change or we get left behind... And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But heres the truth: the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Sometimes, change is... everything.

5. Luck is nothing more than probability taken personally...

6. Too often, the thing you want the most is the one thing you can't have... Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be... The people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want...

7. At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need....

What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.... We're all damaged, it seems. Some of us more than others. We carry the damage with us from childhood, then as grown-ups, we give as good as we get. Ultimately, we all do damage. And then, we set about the business of fixing whatever we can...

People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers....

Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. But being hardcore isn’t just about being tough. It’s about acceptance. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You don’t have to be tough every minute of every day. It’s okay to let down your guard. In fact there are moments when it’s the best thing you can possibly do… as long as you choose your moments wisely.

There’s a clarity thing when you cross over the edge. There’s a moment when everything just melts away and you’re fearless....

well...

It goes away. The feeling. That feeling that you have right now... today... that feeling like you can do anything. That clarity... It goes away. And you go right back to being the coward who can’t tell the person you love how you feel...

The truth is painful. Deep down, nobody wants to hear it, especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can't help ourselves. Sometimes, we tell them because we owe them at least that much...

In life, only one thing is certain, apart from death and taxes. No matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intentions, you are going to make mistakes. You’re going to hurt people. You’re going to get hurt. And if you ever want to recover... there’s really only one thing you can say... Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be RIGHT. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget...

Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. The funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need.... At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say. They're what you do. Some things you say because you have no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves....

Thursday, November 20, 2008

browsing and i got to thinking

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