there's a lot of things said to me by you that hurt me...

but saying that after all this time you still don't believe that i am a person that would listen to you... that hurt the most... you have no fucking idea how bad that makes me feel...

Changes

oh man... there's gonna be a big amount of changes happening soon... not lookin forward to it... but hell, either i adapt or i get left behind... cant stop change from coming right?

basic story:
- possibility that im moving
- more that likely quitting sanrio in june for school
- enrolling in USF's ROTC(only thing im lookin forward to)
- grandma's cancer is at its limit...

91st, A Nostalgic Day..

91st... the aura of this day was just different... it definitely didnt feel like the previous competitions... less people spectating... small teams... im still really impressed with the teams of gal though.. they drilled their fuckin heart out...

All in all... i cant say much anymore about RO stuff... all the alumni can do is watch and comment... this program has made us into a family... and like a good family member should do... we choose to support them no matter what happens.... we'll just be happy that our students learned all they can from us and evolved from it... they put their heart into it... made what was once our styles into their own unique one...and we are just gonna be proud of what they attempted... i know i am... this day was just what i needed for this shitty week ive been having...


Placings for Galileo:
3rd Drill Platoon
3rd Girls Drill Team
??? Silent Drill Team/Flag Team

(right click and select view image for better quality on all pics)

The Battlefield for many years...


Galileo's Drum Corps instruments....


Yep... save RO...


ah mui aka little sis and me


Yvonne's BLING ring... wedding soon haha...


of course i would notice a tenorikuma bag at a fuckin drill competition... lol



Gal Alumni... Reign Supreme!


Galileo's current battalion...


Ricky's hoodie... Galileo Silent Drill Team... not STD fools


Guidon in the wind...


Galileo Lions JROTC pride for life...


The old passion....


G House Lions...


blurry but michael's fuckin 4 slices of pizza turned into one haha...


Round Table X-Large Ulti-Meat pizza


Jeff's Small King Arthur pizza


My favorite painting... Van Gough's Starry Nights... try to see wut it means...



sidenote for what's in my head:

perhaps i should have restricted my words last night.... its not easy for me to hold things in, and you know that... my heart is open, and my mind and mouth soon follows... i never want to drag you down with the emotions that i have in my head... but in order to feel like you can understand me... you have to know what's on my mind... just listening is enough satisfaction and will cheer me up...

also, yea.. i do beat myself up alot.. only because i probably wish i could do more to fix a bad situation or that a bad situation happened because of a mistake i made myself... i like to think things throughly... perhaps even when i really shouldnt... but i am NOT a person that can keep pushing aside drama and hoping to let time fix shit and deal with it later... why not just confront it head on... but i digress... its just not easy for everyone to do that... and every person has their own thoughts and approaches towards things...

i just hate it when a good thing goes bad... due to my own mistakes... =\ *sigh...

sleepless nights

5/17/08 - Libra Daily Extended
Today the challenges that you face are more mental than physical. You'll have to know what is right for you and stick to your plans. A good thing for you to remember is that you do have the strength to stay committed to what you want. You have a huge amount of strength inside of you, although you might have to go deep in order to find it! Time is on your side, so there is no need to push yourself too hard. Just take it slow, and you will make it!

i guess.. right?



Don't wonder why people go crazy, wonder why they dont... In the face of all we can lose in a day.. or hell... in an instant... wonder what the hell is it that makes us hold it together...

heh... seriously...